Breaking My Heart

BREAKING MY HEART

My name is Fischa Felisha Queenera. Everybody always calls me Fifi. Now I’m a student in Guna Dharma Senior High School and I’m tenth grade. This school is one of the famous schools in my town. I’m very proud to go to this school. And in this school, I also find many new things and friends. And in this school also, I experience being in love for the first time.

The first day I went to my school, I met a cool and handsome boy, and in that time, I felt that I liked him. Unfortunately, he entered XC class and I entered XE class. I was curious about his name, than I asked my friends to find out his name Andriano Milano, or they usually called him Andri, that was his name. I wanted to get closer with him and I asked my friends for his phone number. I was very happy because I get his phone number.

In the evening, I wanted to send him a text, but I was shy. I was afraid if he would be angry with me. But finally I dared to start sending him a message. It came to my surprise, Andri was a nice boy. He always replied all my messages. Andri asked me to meet him the next day at the canteen, of course I didn’t refuse his invitation, and I really couldn’t wait to meet him. That night was a beautiful night for me, I was very happy.

The next day , during the breaktime , I went to the canteen hurriedly and Andri was there already waiting for me.

“ Hi Andrei, I’m Fifi”

“Hi FI. That’s you Fifi . Nice to meet you”

“Nice to meet you too Andri.

We talked until the bell rang. Actually talking with Andri was nice . Andri was cool, funny, and nice person and one thing that made me fall in love with him, his eyes. He had a very good eyes that made me hypnotized. I told all about my feel to my bestfriend, Vera. And Vera supported me to be his girlfriend.

Almost everyday, I sent text to Andri, and I always started it. At the first, I embarrassed because was afraid if he said a was a flirty, but love takes sacrifice, so I dared my self to start it.

Andri was very thoughtful, he always responed to all of my attention. I started to fall in love with him and my feeling grew as I knew in Andri didn’t have any girlfriend and he had not been dating. From that fact, I was never shy to start the messages first.

Until one day I told Vera to help me to say to Andri that I liked him, and Vera was glad to help. I asked Vera to send Andri a message and in that time, I didn’t send him message. I just wait a message from Vera. I immediately opened it and Vera would tell me about it the next morning at the canteen.

I heard all the stories from Vera with enthusiasm and all what hope all wait away after I found out that Andri didn’t not have any feelings to me and just thought I was just a friend. It hurt so much, I wanted to shout and cry , but I must stand because I was in the canteen. Vera said if Andri wanted to talk to me after school in front of the class, but I felt embarrassed and was not ready to meet Andri, but Vera asked me to meet up with Andri after school, I really could not see him.

 When school ended, I went alone to in front of the class when Andri was waiting.

“ Hi Andri. Have been here for long?”

“ Hi Fi. Not yet. Anyway please seat here.

“okee. Thank you. Ndri Vera said you wanted to say something. What Ndri?”

“Fi, sorry in advance. Vera already tell me all about your feelings to me, but I just thought that you are a friend. I can not reply your feelings to me. Sorry Fi……”

“Hahahhaaaa…… Just relax Ndri. Do not need apologies. I also wrong and it was considered escessive to you, sorry Ndri”

“But Fi………………”

“Oh Ndri… I forgot if Vera is already waiting for me there. I’ve to go now. Bye Andri”

I ran over to Vera, who was sitting alone in front of the school garden and I just cried in there. Andri just made my heart broken.

After the incident, I had never started to text him and I thought Andri was also away from me, but I never paid attention to although I admitted I was in love with him. Until one day, in the evening, I dared myself to send him a message firs and was still the same as that used to be, he was still good and caring with me. Unexpectedly, in that night, Andri asked me to be his girl friend. I was very very happy, it was unexpected and I shouted loudly. Without pretending I accepted him to become my boyfriend and in that night we were officially dating. I was very very very happy.

It has been a month and there was a misunderstanding between Andri and me. There was words that might be for serious for Andri  but for me they were just fine, but Andri did not understand and we finally broke up. I cried loudly because I really loved him. I could not be far away an separated from him for the umpteenth the Andri broke my heart again.

I thought it was better if we were just be friends, because Andri always made me disappointed. Although until now I just loved him and I can not to forget him. But I promised I would not be heart broken anymore.